So much going on in my head...

I need somewhere to vent and I figure this is a good enough place. So I apologize in advance for the many ramblings about to take place.
First of all, I would like it to be known that a couple months ago I made a full fledged effort in my Christian life. I hate to say that I'm a born-again Christian because God has always been in my life, but in a way that is what I am. See, growing up I was essentially told that God existed and Jesus was His son and that was it. I was also told that I didn't have to go to church or read the Bible to go to Heaven. So my whole life I prayed every now and then but didn't ever strive for a relationship with Him. And I knew something was missing...
For a few weeks I tried very hard to please God. I believed if I didn't curse or swear and I was nicer, etc. that I could win God's love. I figured then I would be worthy of his attention and He would like me or love me more.
Then, a couple of months ago I asked Jesus into my heart. I knew that He had always been there but what I didn't know was that I was doing it all wrong. I decided to engross myself in the Bible and learn as much as I could about Christian life. I learned that no matter what I do in life I will NEVER be worthy of His love. Most importantly, I learned that there is nothing I can do to win His love. It's already there. All I needed to do was accept His wonderful gift.
I've learned so much in the last couple of months and am striving everyday to deepen my RELATIONSHIP with Him. I pray everyday, many times a day. I engage in Bible study mostly everyday. I am learning to trust in Him completely. I am learning to give complete control of my life to Him and only Him. Most of all, I feel so much happier and so much more at peace now than I ever have.
Now, the reason I am posting this is because the last few nights I have had such an incredible feeling within myself and no way to get it out. I can't even begin to find the words to describe this feeling. I am literally craving to know more about Him. I want Jesus Christ, my Lord and Savior to be the complete center of my life. And I am getting there, bit by bit. I have some really bad habits that I am trying to overcome and I know this is a long process; a long journey. But to be honest, I am so incredibly happy. I love my Lord with all of my heart and am learning more and more what that means. And right now, it means everything.